an amazing turnaround...

Wow. Have things changed dramatically from my last blog. That was over a month and a half ago, and let me tell you, my life went from "bipolar" (which is how I described it in my last blog) to almost blissful. Allow me to explain, eh?

Matty and I are now a happy couple. No, scratch that. We are absolutely, completely, head-over-heels in love with each other. How amazing is that? I don't even know exactly how it happened, it was kind of a whirlwind. We started talking more and more, which I didn't know was possible, since we have talked almost every single day for months. Sure, we got into some arguments, as detailed in my last blog, and definitely had some rough patches, and I got jealous, but for some reason, I calmed down. After the whole jealous incident with the girl he was planning on dating, I involuntarily became relaxed with the situation. Somehow I had the feeling that everything would be okay, that I just needed to sit back and let things work out how they were supposed to. I have NEVER been that type of person, you know? I mean, I'm not crazy jealous or anything, but I definitely get a bit protective and unsettled when the person I'm interested in in gets interested in someone else. But within the past month or so, I just enjoyed what Matt and I had, enjoyed our rapport, our conversation, our loving friendship. Even when he talked about possibly dating other girls, or being interested in someone, I just wanted him to be happy. It was unlike it has ever been with anyone else.

So we kept talking more and more, and our banter got more flirty, and giddy, and intense. Matt kept seeming more and more interested, and I just went with the flow, not knowing exactly what was going to happen. It's all kind of a blur, and I know things were happening before this, but I remember a couple weeks ago, on a Monday, me, Sam, Cal, and Eric went to see A Perfect Getaway at the theatre. (By the way, I don't recommend it.) Anyway, I checked my phone mid-movie, and I had a couple texts from Matt. One of which read: "By the way, I'm crazy about you." I remember my heart jumping, my knees going weak, all that good stuff. From then on, it's just been amazing.

I can't even begin to explain how I feel about him. I mean, I have always cared about him, and in the past few months I have had romantic feelings for him, but this is unlike anything I've ever experienced for anyone else. I mean, it's at the point where I know I'm going to be with this person for the rest of my life, and he feels the exact same way. Do you know how extraordinary that is? That is just unbelievable. Last night he called at 12:45 at night, and we talked until 4:30 in the morning. We never run out of things to talk about, we play off of each other so well, and it's just such a well-rounded relationship. Even though we're 600+ miles away from each other, I never feel alone. I always feel loved, and protected, and respected, and cared for. There has been times that I have dated someone, and been constantly around them and in the same room with them, and I've felt alone. Matt never makes me feel alone.

The plane ticket is already booked. I fly out of Milwaukee to Kansas City on October 3rd, and return on October 7th. I'll most likely take a second trip there in mid-December, then when he gets two weeks off of work in February, he'll be up here. Then, eventually, he will look into transferring his job up here, to live. He's so amazing. Nobody has ever shown this amount of love for me, and I genuinely believe that he will love me and care for me for the rest of my life, as I will for him. I am not this type of girl, the type that swoons over things like this, but this is different. This is for real.

I could write all day about him, but unfortunately, considering I was on the phone until 4:30 this morning, I am quite exhausted. I just wanted to write this, wanted to document what's been going on, considering I am happier than I've ever been in my entire life.

Someday, I'll read this blog to my children. It's quite a story, I think.